Sunday, March 2, 2008

Repent! The End Is Near!

I've been back at my current FOB for over a week now, and have made a conop* to Kabul and back in the meantime. The day after we got here, we made a major thrust into the country to the north of here, which is generally accepted to be "Indian Country." It was sudden, it was in force, and it was a surprise.

The enemy did nothing.

He didn't fail to act because he was so frightened of our massive firepower. He just didn't know that we were coming, and it was too late to throw an impromptu party, so he watched how we operate. He noted how we move, what kind of weapons, how long our helicopters can stay on station, and where we appeared to be vulnerable. He noted what kind of things we seem to be interested in, and where our vehicles seemed to have problems.

We returned completely unscathed. For some, it was their first foray into such territory. To me, it was just like any trip into The Valley. As I wrote to a friend recently, it's like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get.

That friend, who happens to be a professional writer, clued me in to a co-worker who coined the phrase (no, it wasn't Forrest Gump,) a writer for The Washington Star. That was my trivia for the week, and now it's yours.

Speaking of The Valley, I had my last trip into The Valley while I was in Bagram. My old team was going down there, and I was waiting for a flight to my FOB (they don't happen every day) and I couldn't sit on my thumbs while my buddies went down there, so I hitched a ride as an extra gun. It, too, was uneventful. A convoy got shot up there the next day, but our trip was like a drive in the park. Box of chocolates.

I got to talk with some guys down there who worked a little with my old bunch of ANP, and one of the guys, who I will write about later, told me that the ANP there still talk about me. I can't explain how that makes me feel. Having the respect of the Afghans I've worked with so closely means the world to me. It was one of the coolest things I've heard all year.

I also got to have one last operational ride with O and the Maniac and Jacques Pulvier. MAJ (Stone) Cold was there, too. He's being promoted to Lieutenant Colonel any time now. There is some justice in the Army after all.

That man is one of the finest officers I've ever met in my 26 year career.

When I leave this country, I will be free to write a bit more freely about where we were, and some of the circumstances that we were in. There are a lot of stories that haven't been told. I plan to tell a few of them.

I've been really careful about OPSEC, and I've been really careful about personal security as well. I've made a big point of it. OPSEC won't be as big an issue when I get home, and when the rest of our teams get home. I could write about The Valley now, but I'm just going to wait until we're home. Many of the events that occurred there happened months and months ago. OPSEC isn't the concern there, it's just as well to wait.

In about a week I will leave this FOB where I've only spent a couple of months... and been gone for almost half of one of those for a four day pass. I've gotten to work with the local ANP, but not like I came to know the men up in The Valley. It takes awhile, and some shared difficulty and challenge, to establish that kind of bond. There hasn't been that kind of time or challenge here. They're good guys, and I love working with Afghans, even when they are three different flavors of f*(%ed up.

If it weren't for missing my kids so much, I'd stay for a few more months... except my own Army is seriously pissing me off. I've seen so many things I never thought that I'd see from my own team. I've seen things I can never write about, and I don't want to get into bashing, but I will say that I am shocked, dumbfounded, amazed, and pissed off.

None of the above relates to any acts of barbarism or war crimes. Let me say that; more acts of extreme parochialism and fraternal cannibalism. Try to make sense of that, if you will. I am sick of it, and so I will go home. I will write about some of it later, and I will write some of it for Army eyes in the vague and mildly insane hope that it will make a difference to someone somewhere who can do something about it. We repeatedly shoot ourselves in the foot by shooting our brethren in the foot and thinking that it is not, in fact, our own foot.

Many of these things are institutional problems. Just the way it is, more or less.

We are winning this war, no matter what anyone says, no matter what the New York Times says, we are winning. The improvements that I've seen since I've been here are many and significant. I've seen so many roads built, so many soldiers trained, I've seen rank reform begun within the ANP, I've seen corruption uncovered and worked on, I've seen soldiers who get paid on time when in the past they were getting paid late and getting shaken down for it. I've seen the ANP receive new equipment, I've seen them begin to function. I've seen it spreading like an inkblot.

The ACM* have ratcheted up their violence, sure... it's desperation. They have to. The GoA (Government of Afghanistan) is extending their influence further and further into previously ungoverned areas. The Afghan National Army is no joke; they can fight, and when they do, the ACM usually come out mauled. The ANA doesn't exactly look just like Americans. They look like professional Afghans, and that doesn't look American.

Hopefully, they don't pick up our bad habits, too.

The ANP are ten times more likely to be killed in combat than their ANA counterparts. Hopefully that number will start to decrease. The ANP are the last piece of the puzzle. When the guy in the village with the automatic weapon is an ANP and life under the ANP is better than life under the Taliban, then we will really win. Then Afghanistan will really win.

I think that we're on the way to this end, if we are allowed to continue and if they will send enough mentors over here so that every district in every province has a mentor team.

We are not winning because we are master counterinsurgents. Our line units are apparently completely untrained in counterinsurgency. We've got some young soldiers who were sent here to train ANP on soldier skills who not only are untrained in counterinsurgency, but who don't want to hear it, either. We are doing a terrible job of evangelizing counterinsurgency doctrine, the only doctrine that will win against an insurgency.

We're not winning because we're so damned great; we are winning because there are enough Afghans who really want a better country and are willing to put their butts on the line to have it.

When you are at home and you speak to someone who has been here, and they tell you that they hate Afghans, know this; you are speaking to someone who doesn't get it. They are people who are too damned lazy to have tried to get past the differences and see the men inside. They are people who feel superior by virtue of what they have that was freely given to them, not because they are inherently better or because of some earned superiority. They will complain of Afghans not being able to read. Remind them that they can read not because they are so virtuous, but because they live in a society that will not permit them not to go to school. They will complain of Afghans being primitive, but they themselves did not build the water treatment plants, or the power stations that make them so advanced. That was all there when they were born into their pristine hospital beds.

They will complain of corruption, when most of them have never had to worry about feeding their family on a salary that is woefully short of what it takes to feed the kids. They will feel that their education makes them superior; or that they use silverware to eat with, or even because they are Christians (I once had a Captain explain to me why all 26 million Afghans will find their way to Hell because they are not Christians... I don't think he's alone.) None of these things are things that they have done for themselves. So we are superior by nature of our birth. Nobility, we are.

One soldier who is struggling with the concepts of counterinsurgency... Smokey came here to kill everything he sees (let's see how long that holds up when he gets shot at the first time)... explained to me how hard he worked to get his college degree in graphic design. I told him that he has no idea what hard work is until he's seen an Afghan work acres and acres with a hoe and a shovel.

We are arrogant, self-centered people, and our Army is a reflection of the nation. Yes, we are winning in Afghanistan. No, it's not really our victory completely. We would not, could not, win without the dedicated, uneducated, illiterate, Hell-bound savages whose bravery is often unbelievable.

Don't ever tell me that the Afghans need to put some skin in the game. I've put four of them in vinyl bags with their skin in pieces and seen the rest of them continue to do their jobs. They lost two more in the same way in nearly the same spot. Another was shot clean through the head, and his brethren kept going into that same area. That's skin the game, and in the earth, and in the grave.

Yes, sometimes there are acts of cowardice. I've seen more amazing feats of cowardice from an American officer who will go home claiming to be a hero. We are not superior by nature of our births, or the training that our Army can afford to give us. What makes a man superior is his actions, and I could point to many examples where we do not deserve that title.

We train our soldiers to be arrogant. Is there no way that our soldiers can be superbly trained and confident without having to look down on the rest of the world?

So, when you meet the guy who hates Afghans, know that he never got it. You may give him an opportunity to explain, perhaps, that he is tired of Afghans... they require a lot of effort to understand and sometimes to tolerate the things they do that will never make sense to us. Sometimes being tired of them will be stated as hate, but it is not the same. If he still insists that it is hatred, then welcome him home and pray that he is never again sent forth as an American counterinsurgent. We do not need him.

I'm going home soon, and I've still got stories to tell.

CONOP = Convoy Operation

ACM = Anti Coalition Militia (Not all ACM are Taliban, many are also HiG, or Hizbi Islami Gulbuddin; they are the militia of the HiG party, led by warlord Hekmatyar Gulbuddin. They claim to be a political party. There are other smaller ACM's also, like Jamyaat. The main ones in the areas where I've worked have been Taliban and HiG.


  1. I just want to say that I really enjoy reading your blog. I agree with all you have to say.
    I have a friend in Afghanistan who I don't really get to talk to all that much. Reading your blog helps me understand what he is going through. Although I know I could never fully understand.

    I just wanted to say thanks..

  2. Just a word of advice upon your return to American soil: Don't turn on the television. And I don't mean avoid the news reports. I mean steer clear of so-called "reality" programming. It's truly surreal what passes for entertainment in the twisted world of Hollywood these days. We've advanced way beyond the materialism of the "Price is Right". The entertainment industry's incessant message comes across loud and clear: "It's not enough to merely grab as much as you can - to be a 'real winner' you have to make sure everyone else loses." Backstabbing has come of age.

    But I trust that in time, you'll be able to see past the social differences with your fellow citizens (just as you've done with your ANP colleagues). Despite the narcissistic norms of American culture, there are still wonderful people who (like you) strive toward a goal bigger than feeding their own already-bloated egos.

    One last thing, please accept our thanks (by which I mean, "Don't deflect the thanks we express"). You won't hear the words "thank you" enough. But when you do, please don't let there be an awkward silence. Just reply, "It was an honor to have served." We, who have so much to be thankful for, are so poor in opportunities to express gratitude - don't rob us of the satisfaction of honoring those who merit our praise.

    Well, I've given more than enough unsolicited advice. I guess all that's left for me to say is, "Thank you!"

  3. Damn your writing: I can't help but think once again. You really prime the pump of cognitive thought.

    I suspect that same arrogance is a systemic part of the human makeup. I suspect it is the reason that so many officers (guilty as charged) come across as holier-than-thou. I suspect most people are aware of their shortcomings, and just bury them. But you can't hear "Greatest Nation on Earth" too many times without starting to feel invested in the concept.

    I greatly look forward to your post-deployment writings. Keep safe, and may the reaminder of your tour be boring.

  4. Thank you for so many excellent postings. I have been sending care packages to soldiers in Afghanistan and am always looking for good info on the real situation there.

    I appreciate your insights and candor. Keep up the good work.

    THANK YOU most of all for your service.

  5. Your Blog should be mandatory reading in all American schools.

  6. I'll be sad (and happy of course) to see the end that's nigh -- your blog was a great help while my son was in Afghanistan, and I am still a regular reader. You write beautifully and I'm grateful for the insights. Hope you keep turning it out when you're back.

    Take care and get home safe. And thanks.

  7. Thank you, my friend, for your sacrifice and dedication. And thank you most of all for sharing your experience and knowledge with so many Americans. Welcome home...soon. Write when you have time.

  8. Great post! I agree that it is wrong for us to consider ourselves better (ESPECIALLY those that Christian!). Many people take so many things for granted, it is simply unbelievable. I wonder how many people would enjoy a nice steak dinner if they had to go out back and butcher the cow? Would they know how to grow the vegetables and fruits? Would they know which plants you could grow close together, and which plants would harm each other? Hmm. That's just the beginning of my thoughts!

    (I walk around in barefeet all the time, because I'm from the country. People still don't understand that I can feel the ground better, etc.)

    I know you will be happy to be home, and everyone will be happy to have you home. Nice and safe. ;)

    I shall keep praying for your teams and you, your family and friends. God bless you, my friend, and be careful. Godspeed.

    PS. I hope your 'package' reaches you before you leave. There is some goodies for the children. :)

  9. Yet another excellent post. I am so looking forward to your posts from the homefront.

    It's time to get home to your family. I hope the transition is a smooth one.

    Thanks again.


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